I was talking with another woman the other day and in the course of our conversation and she asked me if there were any prospects on the horizon for our home sale. I mentioned that we had a showing coming up and how we were hopeful that the people coming through would be the buyer. I also mentioned that the next day it would be two months since my mom passed on, and how I think that I am starting to come around after this long dark season of suffering.
She said the most curious thing to me: She said that I am very honored to have gone through all this suffering. Had she seen my face, she would have realized how that statement stunned me. My first thought was that was nuts! Who would be honored to go through all this stuff? I did ask her to explain because I was sure she had some deeper meaning attached to her statement. She is a very godly woman, and is wiser in years than I.
She told me that God has done such a work in my life that I am ready for the tougher stuff. I have moved beyond the little trials in life and I have grown to the point where I can by God’s grace handle the more difficult trials of life, and in that sense it is an honor.
Well….I must confess that “honor” is not a word I would attach to any portion of the past few years, and especially not the past 8 months. Torture would be more accurate from my perspective. My first thought was that if I have reached a new level, where the heck is the exit? The inevitable thoughts of what else is there on this level?? Cancer? Sudden loss of a loved one? Crippling illness? These thoughts and more suddenly invaded my mind and I realized to some degree I was mighty fearful of what comes next.
My flesh is ready for a break.
But Oh! God is faithful…God never gives us anymore than we are able to bear (1 Cor. 10:13) and through Christ and by running to Christ we can make it through whatever comes our way. My wise Pastor said he didn’t think “honor” was a word Job would have used either as he sat in the ashes and scraped the scabs off his skin. It is more like conformity.
It is more to the point that the adversity God gives or allows into our lives is there because He knows it will make us more like Christ. It will mature our faith, and build character within us. I must be one tough pot…maybe cast iron to require such lengths to conform my character to that of Christ!
These sorts of things can get a person a little down. My desire is to glorify God. My desire is to live for Him, (and I pray it is a long and healthy life of service!) and meditating on trials and the pain of being conformed is wearing.
As though God knew where I was emotionally as I wrote this post, this arrived in my email box- nothing else, just this:
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